My main goal for 2012 was to have goals, so I can focus. I like Robert Lee Brewer's 2012 list, which includes both writing and personal goals. I sat down with pen and notebook, intent on making my own list.
And I was overwhelmed.
I've been pulled so many different directions — work, volunteering (too much), family, health — I knew my list could be too long to be helpful.
I turned the page to a blank one and thought: What if I could do anything I wanted in the coming year? I jotted down three things. I looked at those three things and had a light-bulb moment. That was my list! I felt as if a burden had been lifted off me.
|Path at Woodbrooke in England|
1. Finish my novel.
2. Reconcile with an estranged friend.
3. Find our Maness ancestor.
Work, survival, family crises — the "shoulds" in my life will happen. I'll do the things I have to do. Part of me said, I should work on my relationship with God, I should pay off bills, I should spend more time with family. Well, my little list is simple, and it's not.
I consider that novel my ministry and writing my gift, which makes it important. Reconciling is what God tells us to do. And that missing ancestor? That's a project I work on with my uncle, who is very sick. Time is running out.
Accomplishing those three things would not only make me happy, but also fit into the bigger picture.